Midnight of January 11,2008
I just did it again…my creatively imaginative mind did it again… and its hard to control it… and Im overwhelmed… i just did recalled my past experiences and this part of my recollection was the longest part… Here it goes… theres this one person I know, she always sends nice messages several times each day and of course there’s nothing wrong with it. I just thought that she’s nice just like her nice messages. But until such time that she revealed her personality and its a LOT different from her messages. I liked the messages but I didn’t like her personality, a lot of others didn’t like her. and i think this things happened because of what she did especially to my mom and brother… It was a CRAZY thing… It just shows that ACTION reflects ones personality… A personality that may or may not be seen or felt and a personality that rooted from real expression of self or false representation of self, no one knows but TIME and DESTINY can reveal the TRUTH! And SHE, a friend I thought as TRUE is just a person pretending to be TRUE FRIEND… A Person I shared my life…. A life that taught me beautiful things which made me a better and stronger person… A SON WHO WILL FIGHT FOR HIS FAMILY!… A BETTER ME!! Thank you “someone” for sharing and revealing your real self to me and for making me open my eyes to see that your never worth a friend for me.
At about 1am, I realized that I need to get some sleep , time to stop reminiscing those moments and go back to reality. And I also put into my mind that “what’s important is Here and Now, forget the past,move on and move forward whatever it takes…
Still about 1am, just before I close my eyes… Another unexpected thing happened, I again remembered things which made me realize that I am precious, special, and Loved! And that Life is beautiful when you know how to appreciate things… and that SMALL things are the ones that really make us continue our travel through life.
here it goes… Just when everything bad happens like what I just shared from previous paragraph… DON’T LOSE HOPE… Remember that the ONLY ONEs WHO can help us is GOD and our FAMILY. Yeah, its a nice feeling to know that your being cared and loved by many.
There are habits and people that would hinder us from achieving success. Leran from them… then Discard them… One thing Ive learned in life is that things change, people change too. No use hanging on to the past. Just BE WITH GOD, BE WITH YOUR FAMILTY, BE YOURSELF, and surely a GREAT STORY will be YOURS to TREASURE forever!
From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I am fighting worthwhile!